It's not that I'm really upset.
It's just annoying that people only ever seem to buy my preposes now. Instead of my normal art.
And I get what, maybe... One person on my sales that I ya know, really wanna do?
And this was before I got my job.
If Vexy wasn't so kind, I wouldn't have gotten 60 back to cover what paypal took during that whole fucking scary bank issue.
It's just irritating.
I wish more people wanted my art sometimes. Or just paid attention.
Especially to my characters. It's a dream of mine that people, you know, pay attention to them. And like them.
But really, I feel like not many people care.
And my whole life I just wanted people to like my creations.
BUHBUHUHDSJKFHDSKJDSG
WHATEVER.
TIME TO WORK ON STUFF AUGH
Monday, July 23, 2012
Tuesday, May 29, 2012
When you find an artist who draws in the style you've always wanted to...
And you don't know whether to get giddy and fangirly because oh my god this art
Or if you should sob with jealousy because oh god why can't I draw like this.
:'I
Or if you should sob with jealousy because oh god why can't I draw like this.
:'I
Monday, April 30, 2012
Sunday, April 15, 2012
Interesting few days so far.
Finished two commissions in one day, hung out with two friends the other! It's kinda hard to believe she's pregnant, still... But eh, we had fun at the zoo and got in free cause she works there! There was an albino python and he was so cute cause he was sleeping on the side of his head all curled up and just BABY AHHHH
I want to own a snake.
I really do.
Finished two commissions in one day, hung out with two friends the other! It's kinda hard to believe she's pregnant, still... But eh, we had fun at the zoo and got in free cause she works there! There was an albino python and he was so cute cause he was sleeping on the side of his head all curled up and just BABY AHHHH
I want to own a snake.
I really do.
Sunday, April 1, 2012
I've been having really bad anxiety for the past month or two. And it's awful.
Just a minute ago I felt it out of nowhere again. Sometimes there's a reason, but lately, there's not one. Just a chest crushing feeling of anxiety and dread washing over me, and I have no control over it. I wanted to curl up in a ball and sob. There's absolutely no reason for it. And it's frightening really.
I've had these feelings as long as I can remember, it's not just being shy.
It wouldn't be so crushing and alarming if it was just being shy.
I can tell you honestly, If I didn't know anyone at school, I would have stopped going.
When I couldn't find anyone and no one was in my class it was just... So much work to go. I was scared. Scared every day or my life. I can't even explain it. What I'm saying is really light compared to what I actually feel.
I got the courage to bring it up to mom the other day though. So I asked to go to the doctor.
We should be making an appointment soon and maybe, hopefully, I will be able to get something to rid this from me, and maybe then I can live every day peacefully. Normally. As normal as I can live at least.
It would be nice.
Mom said we'll also talk about birth control to help my cramps, cause they keep getting worse and worse, and it would clear my face up too.
So, now I just have to stop having anxiety about going to the doctor xD;
Wish me luck.
Just a minute ago I felt it out of nowhere again. Sometimes there's a reason, but lately, there's not one. Just a chest crushing feeling of anxiety and dread washing over me, and I have no control over it. I wanted to curl up in a ball and sob. There's absolutely no reason for it. And it's frightening really.
I've had these feelings as long as I can remember, it's not just being shy.
It wouldn't be so crushing and alarming if it was just being shy.
I can tell you honestly, If I didn't know anyone at school, I would have stopped going.
When I couldn't find anyone and no one was in my class it was just... So much work to go. I was scared. Scared every day or my life. I can't even explain it. What I'm saying is really light compared to what I actually feel.
I got the courage to bring it up to mom the other day though. So I asked to go to the doctor.
We should be making an appointment soon and maybe, hopefully, I will be able to get something to rid this from me, and maybe then I can live every day peacefully. Normally. As normal as I can live at least.
It would be nice.
Mom said we'll also talk about birth control to help my cramps, cause they keep getting worse and worse, and it would clear my face up too.
So, now I just have to stop having anxiety about going to the doctor xD;
Wish me luck.
Thursday, March 29, 2012
Wednesday, March 28, 2012
Saturday, March 24, 2012
So a friend suggested I vent arted
and I did this and I guess I forgot I had it sitting in sai, unsaved and untouched
So I saved it and I guess I'm posting it here?
It's kinda cool, now that I look at it, I might use the concept later...?
Tuesday, March 20, 2012
OHAY BLOGGER I DIDN'T FORGET ABOUT YOU
Except I totally did.
I painted a Kure uwu And figured out how to add red to his skin and make it look right! 8D I'm hoping it helps show he's native or whatever? uwu
Also, additional background!
I liked the effect this one had!
I painted a Kure uwu And figured out how to add red to his skin and make it look right! 8D I'm hoping it helps show he's native or whatever? uwu
Also, additional background!
I liked the effect this one had!
Friday, March 16, 2012
Thursday, March 15, 2012
Went to the art building and decided to work on this a bit today 8D; I think I'm getting a bit fast? The bottle still needs more layers! But yeah, I left cause suddenly no one was in there and I got really paranoid after a while. But yeah, great way to spend spring break huh 8D;;
ALSO I WAS BEING WATCHED
ALSO I WAS BEING WATCHED
Monday, March 12, 2012
I drew Blaze and his dick for Rizza's birthday! 8D She said she was having trouble with drawing it anyways, cause it's large, but she doesn't know how to make it large without it being too big! And then she doesn't know if it's too small =w= So I tried to help with this? Plus, I'm GONNA jump at the chance to draw Blaze like this mmm yes yes.
what?
what?
Saturday, March 3, 2012
Dear Agony, now is not the time to make me almost cry, gosh. :C
ANYWAYS. Typing this here because fuck you, I do what I want.
Finished all four of those commissions in one day, I feel like I accomplished something. |3 So, that's nice. Being at home kinda. Eh, though. Getting bitched at for things that aren't really my control? I'm sorry I didn't feel like running back to the store to get what I forgot because I'm in a hell of a lot of pain in my leg for some reason. But you know, that doesn't mean I never go to the store for you, hell, what the fuck did I just do for you anyways? :\ EVEN when I'm in pain...
I can only hope my weekend will get better? It might not, though... Gonna try and get some more commissions though, I need to save up for when we get this car for me, so I can pay for gas and insurance... Gas is way too fucking high, it's crazy! D: So yeah... I also wanna buy these amazing looking scullcandy headphones =w=; I-I love my ear buds so much, I just. Want over the ear ones with even BETTER sound quality and bass. gotta hear that bass in the rock, ya know? Not dubstep, I don't like dubstep...
Okay, it's later than I intended, time to sleep and hope everything is better in the morning.
ANYWAYS. Typing this here because fuck you, I do what I want.
Finished all four of those commissions in one day, I feel like I accomplished something. |3 So, that's nice. Being at home kinda. Eh, though. Getting bitched at for things that aren't really my control? I'm sorry I didn't feel like running back to the store to get what I forgot because I'm in a hell of a lot of pain in my leg for some reason. But you know, that doesn't mean I never go to the store for you, hell, what the fuck did I just do for you anyways? :\ EVEN when I'm in pain...
I can only hope my weekend will get better? It might not, though... Gonna try and get some more commissions though, I need to save up for when we get this car for me, so I can pay for gas and insurance... Gas is way too fucking high, it's crazy! D: So yeah... I also wanna buy these amazing looking scullcandy headphones =w=; I-I love my ear buds so much, I just. Want over the ear ones with even BETTER sound quality and bass. gotta hear that bass in the rock, ya know? Not dubstep, I don't like dubstep...
Okay, it's later than I intended, time to sleep and hope everything is better in the morning.
Friday, March 2, 2012
Seether will never NOT be the best live band.
Ever.
EVER.
I'm serious.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=UfzLCWg9U7M&feature=related
This has been a post.
Ever.
EVER.
I'm serious.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=UfzLCWg9U7M&feature=related
This has been a post.
'Nother commission for Carlyn! 8U Sheesh, I feel odd drawing all these hemipene snake dicks, because well. It's getting easier to draw them! D:
eh. oh well, just how I do my nagas.
c:
THIS IS COMMISSION DAY I WILL PUNCH ALL THESE COMMISSION IN THE FACE
till ya know, I have to go to the store....
Ugh, I hope they aren't expecting me to put gas in the tank, the truck takes WAY TOO MUCH TO FILL especially if gas is so high.... :\ Baaaaah.
Gotta start setting commission goals for the month for when I get this car of my own....
I'M RAMBLING SORRY LOL
eh. oh well, just how I do my nagas.
c:
THIS IS COMMISSION DAY I WILL PUNCH ALL THESE COMMISSION IN THE FACE
till ya know, I have to go to the store....
Ugh, I hope they aren't expecting me to put gas in the tank, the truck takes WAY TOO MUCH TO FILL especially if gas is so high.... :\ Baaaaah.
Gotta start setting commission goals for the month for when I get this car of my own....
I'M RAMBLING SORRY LOL
Thursday, March 1, 2012
Hahaha, I have yet to post a picture of Lowell, but GO AHEAD AND HAVE HIS GENDERBENT FORM? 8D; Posting cause Candas is posting this stuff to SO LOL HERE HAVE THIS.
Lowell is Kanda and Kure's future son (all by accident of course =w= ) and I just... Genderbent him at request of Candas? 8D
i'll have a normal picture of him soon SHHHH
Lowell is Kanda and Kure's future son (all by accident of course =w= ) and I just... Genderbent him at request of Candas? 8D
i'll have a normal picture of him soon SHHHH
Drawn to the song Dear Agony by Breaking Benjamin!
Almost all of their songs tend to remind Candas and I of our roleplay we are doing, and when I heard this, one specific line kept making me... See this in my head?
Needless to say, once I get all of my commissions out of the way this weekend, I hope to make a small comic based around this whole song, using the lyrics and everything <:
"Dear Agony,
Just let go of me.
Suffer slowly.
Is this the way it's gotta be?
Don't bury me,
Faceless enemy...
I'm so sorry.
Is this the way it's gotta be?
Dear agony..."
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KGrM1sh-8pE
That's the song, if you wanted to know. c:
Almost all of their songs tend to remind Candas and I of our roleplay we are doing, and when I heard this, one specific line kept making me... See this in my head?
Needless to say, once I get all of my commissions out of the way this weekend, I hope to make a small comic based around this whole song, using the lyrics and everything <:
"Dear Agony,
Just let go of me.
Suffer slowly.
Is this the way it's gotta be?
Don't bury me,
Faceless enemy...
I'm so sorry.
Is this the way it's gotta be?
Dear agony..."
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KGrM1sh-8pE
That's the song, if you wanted to know. c:
Wednesday, February 29, 2012
Figure why not start something here?
c: Blogging is always nice, plus I can post wips and sketches and NSFW stuff here~
So that's what I'll be doing, give me some time to set up the page and then to post stuff! 8U But yeah, I'll post things like my ideas and the universe I have been developing (with Candas too <3 )
SO YEAH.
I may post humanverse related stuff here too...... Maybe.
So that's what I'll be doing, give me some time to set up the page and then to post stuff! 8U But yeah, I'll post things like my ideas and the universe I have been developing (with Candas too <3 )
SO YEAH.
I may post humanverse related stuff here too...... Maybe.
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